Wednesday, June 29, 2005

London... but no Mika...

London isn't very pretty in the summer. The room was so humid and hot... had to take a walk. Need to meet BB this afternoon. He owes me some money for some work I did for him before I went to Milan, and he's taken almost 2 years to settle it.

Yesterday, I went to the library Mika said she was working in, only to be told that she left three and a half months back but she did leave a forwarding address, somewhere in Bath. Has it been that long since we last spoke?

The receptionist at the b&b asked me to get a train West to Bristol or Cardiff from Paddington station. Haven't checked the tube map to see how to get there.

Mika, I have so many things to tell you... don't know where to start. I can't help but feel that you are with someone else.

Thursday, June 23, 2005

I start this journey...

I quit my job today. Had enough of the glamorous life. NYC has been a blast, much better than the 6 months I spent in Milan. What's next... I don't know, but I'm taking a year off work to think about it. I have exactly $56,680.89 in my bank, $13,342.12 charged on my credit card, sold my car yesterday for a loss, and happy to start as a no one. I purchased my flight ticket to London last week, on a whim.... not knowing whether I really was going to quit or not, but here I am, checked in, sitting in the airport lounge, with about 6 hours to wait.

Mika was always saying that I should be doing this exactly. But what she really meant was WE should be doing this. Mika, where are you? I hope you're where you said you would be... I'm coming, so don't leave. Two weeks ago, if you would've seen me, the world was in my hands, but now, I sit here, knowing that the next few weeks and months, may be the hardest. I was sad when I left the apartment this afternoon, knowing I would never see it again. I left a message for the land lady, saying that she could have all my clothes if she wanted it.